i've been struggling with my commitments to myself, and refining my goals. for the sake of emptying out my head, i'm taking a friend's suggestion and dumping a list of what i don't want:

i don't want to wear a size 12 anymore; i want to fit into a 6.

i don't want a hideous peach coloured bathroom.

i don't want a messy house.

i don't want a broken dryer.

i don't want dead plants in my house.

i don't want to be so fucking lazy.

i don't want to make up excuses to avoid the gym.

resolution

–noun
1.
a formal expression of opinion or intention made, usually after voting, by a formal organization, a legislature, a club, or other group. Compare concurrent resolution, joint resolution.
2.
a resolve or determination: to make a firm resolution to do something.
3.
the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc.
4.
the mental state or quality of being resolved or resolute; firmness of purpose.
5.
the act or process of resolving or separating into constituent or elementary parts.
6.
the resulting state.
7.
Optics. the act, process, or capability of distinguishing between two separate but adjacent objects or sources of light or between two nearly equal wavelengths. Compare resolving power.
8.
a solution, accommodation, or settling of a problem, controversy, etc.
9.
Music.
a.
the progression of a voice part or of the harmony as a whole from a dissonance to a consonance.
b.
the tone or chord to which a dissonance is resolved.
10.
reduction to a simpler form; conversion.
11.
Medicine/Medical. the reduction or disappearance of a swelling or inflammation without suppuration.
12.
the degree of sharpness of a computer-generated image as measured by the number of dots per linear inch in a hard-copy printout or the number of pixels across and down on a display screen.

focus

keep calm and carry on.

i'm liking that one recently...